The Truth of the Butterflies

This morning Spotify emailed me recapping my favorite songs of the year, I figured I would share with you. I would love some music and artist suggestions for the new year, too! 1. i hate u, i love u (feat. olivia o'brien) by gnash 2. Cry Baby by the neighborhood 3. Somebody Else by The 1975 4. Gold by Kiiara 5. Reaper by Sia 6. Trouble- Stripped by Halsey 7. Burn Mona Lisa by Kyan Palmer 8. Consideration by Rihanna, SZA 9. Pity Party by Melanie Martinez 10. Next to You by the PEACEKEEPER 11. Sunday Candy by Donnie Trumpet & The Social Experiment  12. Close by Nick Jonas, Tove Lo 13. Old English by Young Thug, A$AP Ferg, Freddie Gibbs 14. Primadonna by Marina and the Diamonds 15. Like It Doesn't Hurt by Charlotte Cardin, Husser 16. Cool Girl by Tove Lo 17. Chainsaw by Nick Jonas 18. Greedy by Ariana Grande 19. Gemini Feed by Banks 20. Jealous by Labrinth Also, I went to a concert last week. Two bands performed: Lawrence and then Ri...

If I died today......  just this summer: I would miss the birthday celebration for my best friend, I would miss the fashion show my sister plans on putting on later on because she loves and feels beautiful in all the new clothing she got, I would miss the family reunion dinner with my family from Upstate New York. I would miss the beach trip on Sunday with two of my oldest friends, I would miss the sensation of the super hot sun on my super white skin & the sunburn that follows. I wouldn't be able to sing at the top of my lungs to Hillary Duff's Metamorphosis album with the windows down trying not to choke on my hair. I wouldn't be able to flip people off during the atrocious traffic. I'd miss the Red Sox game that I am going to surprise my sister with for her birthday, and try to ask a random person to buy us beer. Instead the tickets would sadly be handed to some distant friends. I'd miss the annual fourth of July party with my best friends, I wouldn't ...

In my dream world...... I hope to graduate from UMass with a minor in Linguistics. I want to go to grad school in Boston and live in a shitty apartment with my friends and work at a hospital. I would have have my Masters in Audiology, living in either North Carolina or MA, no further than an hour away from my friends & family. I want to live in a house that has some cool architecture to it. I want to have 1-3 kids by the time i am 35. I want to have visited Colorado, Oregon, Amsterdam, Germany, London. I want at least one cat. I want to have weekly nights when i hang out and drink wine & beer with my friends. I want to eat dinner with my parents once a week. I want to be close to my sister, and hope our kids are best friends. I'd love to have a Range Rover or a Subaru. I feel like I'll be an SUV mom.

Like It Doesn't Hurt: Charlotte Cardin Tricky : Fitz and the Tantrums Say It : Flume ft Tove Lo Wherever I Go : OneRepublic Old English : Young Thug We Don't Talk Anymore : Charlie Puth ft Selena Gomez We Don't Eat : James Vincent McMorrow

Rupi Kaur is a women who has put together a collection of poetry that she has written about the good, the bad, the love, and the hate in her life. Her poetry is triggering but it is strong and makes you feel normal, like you are not alone in what you are feeling, what you are dealing with.  "milk and honey" is a little black book, that has made me cry and bring back some tough memories. But I think, again, that it is important to understand that you will never be able to forget to it is useful to learn how to cope in a healthy way.

I thought it would be fun to put together a list of clothing that I enjoy, and clothing that I would wear. also some clothes that I've had my eyes on for awhile.... I really love layering my clothes, and showing a little cleavage every once in a while. I find that neutral tones are easiest to mix & match.  Ideas:  A simple tank top dress, with sneakers (the new balance ones would work). maybe a baseball hat or a pair of big sunglasses. (Jean jacket optional) The cross front shirt, with black distressed jeans, with the denim jacket, sneakers. black cross body purse. Dainty necklace.  Adidas tee with dolphin shorts/destructed blue jeans, tucked in at the front. Strappy brown sandals, hair in bun. Sunglasses. (cross body bag optional) Little yellow tank top, high rise blue denim shorts, sneakers, baseball hat. (baggy sweater optional) Low-cut surplice top, high waisted black jeans, black sandals, dainty necklace, hair in bun. Intense cheek highli...

Tons of Decor Pillows : They may look cute when on your bed, but at night time they can sort of take over your room and take up a lot of room in your car All-Season clothing : if you live close enough to come you'll be able to get your winter clothes High Heels: when you go to college parties most girls wear sandals and sneakers, it's much more comfortable, and the floors at parties are generally pretty gross, also it's never really that warm at night so walking to parties in heels and short skirts/dresses isn't the best option Figurines: they take up a ton of space on your desk, maybe a one or two is fine, but table space is limited in college More than 10 pairs of shoes : i find that in college i wear the same shoes all the time.  I like having two pairs of converse, one pair of vans, one pair on sandals (maybe two), one pair of flats, my bean boots, running sneakers, crocs, moccasins  Microwave: Your dorm will most likely have a kitchen inside of it with...