The Truth of the Butterflies

In high school I was comfortable, I had plenty of friends that made me happy, high school wasn't that challenging although I did not make high honors. I never tried as hard as I could. I definitely let myself down. When you apply to college you instantly start to worry that you didn't try hard enough. You might get into all your colleges but probably not that one school you applied to for "shit and giggles" although you actually really, desperately wanted to go. And you're secretly super sad about it and pretend you never look at whether you got in or not...but in reality you know you didn't. You knew that you weren't going to get in, and even if you did you never would have been able to afford it. So you choose your college, and of course you were too stubborn to apply to the college close to home that would save $13,000/yr, so you choose the next cheapest and it's $26,000/year which is revolting. So your stuck going to this school you never looked a...

I have started my second year here at UMass and to be honest I'm feeling pretty confident in myself. My roommate from last year who ended up being one of my best friends is studying abroad this semester so the friend train is pretty much non existent right now, but I'm working on it. I plan on being more involved with UPC (our university's programming council). There are a few kids from last year who are also doing it again so I'm hoping to becoming closer with them. I have a few friends from high school on campus but we all have super different schedules and some of them are in relationships which always makes life a little more hectic. UMass has construction going on everywhere as usual, but this year it is getting in the way of my shortest routes to certain places. Also, going to the gym has been a major struggle because I feel like I constantly have reading or some sort of work to do that I feel like I can't put aside like 2 hours or the gym. I have a few ...